1 Corinthians 13! Love

And now I will show you the most excellent way.

If I speak in the tounges of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountiains, but have not love, I am nothing.

If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my boy to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I have yet so much to learn.....

Beckah Shae - Forgiveness feat MOC

Forgiveness

Looking for forgiveness and learning to forgive.
In the end all you can do is pray.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WSb6nl1DCgs

Betrayed and let down, they gossip and slander
They sabotage You as they mock You, it’s just a mess!
But I refuse to amuse the lies
And whether or not they apologize
I’m moving on, I’m going to let go cause I got to fly

Laying down all that’s in the past, no bitterness
Putting aside all my pain and my pride, to be blessed
I’ve learned what we hold against someone else
Will only wind up hurting ourselves
We need love motivation

Forgiveness, there’s healing in your wings
Your peace it lets me breathe
Forgiveness, You’re the reason why I live
I’m worth only what I give
Forgiveness

The damage is done, the scars still remain
But I gained wisdom and strength
So I declare the victory is won

I refuse to amuse the pain
Won’t let it take my freedom away
I’m moving on, I’m going to let go
Cause tomorrow’s a better day

Laying down all that’s in the past, no bitterness
Putting aside all my pain and my pride, to be blessed
I’ve learned what we hold against someone else
Will only wind up hurting ourselves
We need love motivation

Forgiveness, there’s healing in your wings
Your peace it lets me breathe
Forgiveness, You’re the reason why I live
I’m worth only what I give
Forgiveness

I am only human, I am so imperfect
And I’m whole heartedly
asking You to forgive me, oh
Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me

You got to take in the air and just breathe in
Believe in order to let a broken heart
start beat, beat beating’ again
A gain of restored grace
From a flash in a past space
What’s left is a bad taste

Repairing from despair
Which left you unaware
That others desperation of hating’
Which had you stating’ what was done in the past,
History, so ill, the sting from the blow, fast hit, it’s so real

Faced with the options presented
Forgive or resent it. to live or regret it, grip or forget it
You got to love or hate it
See, the truth’s been stated
Let it go, because the past has been dated

Now pardon me of my faults in the fall of me
Dignity placed in all we see
Drawn from a source of what we can’t force
A loving trace of a crimson course
Of course, no remorse in

Forgiveness, there’s healing in your wings
Your peace it lets me breathe
Forgiveness, You’re the reason why I live
I’m worth only what I give
Forgiveness

The reason why I live
I’m worth only what I give
Forgiveness

Disney World!

Vincent was born on April 5th, 2004. It's now 2011 and my baby will be seven years old! We are hitting Disney World up for his Birthday BUUT! Since his Birthday falls on a weekday, we will have to wait until the weekend to go. It's going to be exciting and I will definitely be posting pics of the event!

I already booked the hotel and we are ready to go! Pam (Vincent's godmother) got us tickets to Disney World so if it wasn't for her we wouldn't be going! THANKS PAM!!!!! :)

All I need is a camera.... :) I seem to have bad luck with those!

Change.

Change:  make different; cause a transformation.

Well It's 2011. I'm sitting here with Vincent. We are both getting our pedicures. (Vincent's first pedicure) My sister is in the other room getting her eyebrows done. Vincent and I will be embarking on a new beginning. Creating new changes in our lives. What will come for us in the future we may not know yet, but it's something we have to start. You have to start with change. What's life going to be like if you continue to settle or do things just because they are convenient? Not going for what you really want in life? I've decided at 29 to stop settling and do not only what's best for my child, but what's best for me as well. I've been playing it safe for Vincent. Giving him a good home, food and a roof over his head. At one point that was good enough, but now it's just not enough. I want to be able to offer him more. He deserves better. Although I've been giving him the best of what I could for so long and doing it mostly on my own. I did have the support and assistance of my family whenever I needed it. I don't know where I would be if it were not for my loving family. We have a little one here. My mother, Sister, Brother, Sister-in-law and my beloved nephew. Everyone else is in either New York or Puerto Rico.

So let's talk about this change. Change can be many things. It can be change within yourself, physically, emotionally or mentally. You can change the way you think, feel, or look. Based on what you feel you need in life. I have lived my life and have been OK with my life being predictable. That's the definition of Jessie. Predictable & plays it safe. I don't take chances. Why? For fear. Fear of failing. Well I'm done with being fearful and being afraid of failing. Because if you are afraid to fail, how will you ever be successful? If I do fail at least I can say I tried. I don't think I have ever been able to say: "at least I tried". I just didn't try it. I didn't try.

I have failed at things and succeeded at others. I don't know what has caused this inner stirring of wanting to continue on a different path. One that I was not on before. Some say it's my "30's Mid-Life crisis. Some say that they are proud and will stand by me no matter what. It's what you get when you announce anything that is out of the ordinary. Out of what they are used to expecting of you. I'm going on a self-fulfilling journey. One that will fulfill my child's needs and one that will fulfill my own. For once in my life I will stop worrying about if everyone else is taken care of. People are grown and are able to take care of themselves. I will still initially worry as I am a worrier. I am a Libra! It will take some getting used to, but I will conquer this!

I will conquer Yessenia. I will not conquer the world, but I will try to put my wisdom to use. To help others. To help heal. It's what I was made to do.